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[04 Jan 2008|05:02am] |
Dear Live Journal,
After nine years of staying loyal to you I fear I have found a new and improved and far more satisfying grown up way to blog at tumblr.com. I don't hate you. I will remember you fondly. We laughed, we cried, we talked mass amounts of shit under several different usernames. You were a sweet sweet companion but it is time to let go.
It has never felt so good to say goodbye to a period of time in my life. The stroke of midnight on New Years Eve 2007 literally felt like a weight lifted off my
aching shoulders. What a shitstorm that was. So thrilled for new beginnings in EVERY way... not just in my blogging abilities. I recently had the chance to look through some old folders of photos with Dave Starr. Photos of us and the people we love five our so years ago. It made me realize I've been slacking at documenting my memories. I need to live with camera constantly in hand again because those were some of the best times I've ever had and I really have nothing to show for the last three or so years. I mean not much more than failed relationship related stuff. This is what I will use the new spot for. Videos and pictures and documentation of how brilliant the people who are around me can be, sometimes without even trying.
I'll let this be the last thing ever posted by me on LiveJournal.com
In 2007, I gained __dear friends, respect for myself, gratitude, breakup lbs, COURAGE________.
I lost ___love, hope, my best friend, my shooter wilson, my heart, breakup lbs, a lot of things_______________.
I stopped __caring about what people think as much as I used to_____________.
I started ____creating, singing out loud, being free______________.
I was hugely satisfied by __the top of mt. royal at night, MTL city streets at night, the people who stood in my corner and let me cry on their shirts_________.
And frustrated by _his ignorance, my ignorance, loss of love___________.
I am so embarrassed that I _____let whiskey take over three months of my life, brought him home with me on my birthday_________.
Once again, I _______LOVE MY LIFE_________________.
Once again, I did not ___________PUSH YOU AWAY____________________________.
The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is ___I stand up straight and walk around with my head UP________.
The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this
December is ___________I learned that life is what you make it__________.
I loved spending time ___With Crystal and Sara and everyone I rekindled friendships with, and of course shooter wilson whenever he gave me a chance to__________.
Why did I spend even two minutes _______crying over him__________?
I should have spent more time _________loving myself_______________.
I regret buying ______________albums that only reminded me of what I was without_______________.
I will never regret buying ______those plane tickets______________ even though with that money I could have bought ________any number of the things I needed far more at the time...too many to list_______________.
I ____sweat it__________ way too much.
I didn’t ___________dance____ enough.
__________over thinking____________ drove me crazy.
Was ___________september 7th_______________ crazier than ever last year? Or was it me?
The most relaxing place I went was ____________Every time I went to Montreal____________.
I feel so ____________elated___________________________ when I write that down.
Why did I go to _____________the bar that night I knew he was looking for a fight_______________?
The best thing I did for someone else was _____tell them I would never be the friend who tells them exactly what they want to hear_________________.
The best thing I did for myself was _________let go______________________.
The best thing someone did for me was ___tell me I'm beautiful and told me to get a fucking grip all in the same night_________.
The one thing I’d like to do again, but do it better, is ___love someone___________.
Au revoir LJ!
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FRIENDS ONLY!!!
So you don't get to see anything until you add me.
Sorry dudes.
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